Walking with my mother in law

My husbands parents are visiting for a few months. So during my morning walk I have started walking with my mother in law - she is getting a bit old. So she walks at her own pace - all three of us ( my father in law - my mother in law and I ) walk together

It is an experience and we all walk at our own paces and we walk together - we reminisce history, politics ,family, law and environmental . I learn more and reflect more

Perhaps I get better !! 

Unfulfilled promises

I was thinking about so many things that I have promised or almost committed that I will do and I did not do them. I keep thinking on what will be the day when promises will be fulfilled. I just think I can and I commit. Sometimes I just cannot say no and I don't say 'yes' either but that is still a commitment indeed

One day will like to have a zero balance in unfulfilled promises

When days were bigger

Is it just me but are the days getting smaller ( we do so much more than we perhaps did before) but days always get shorter and you run across so that you don't miss an ounce of the day
Before you know it is over ...and the next day is shorter than the previous one

Who needs help

Recently was an seminar with Marshall Goldsmith on executive coaching and was thinking who needs help the most - when I kept thinking and brooding - I just concluded that I was the person who needed help the most - I don't ever help myself

Diwali in Bangalore

Well today is Diwali and I am in Bangalore with Family - As we grow up festivals assume a different meaning is prescribed to Festival - Maybe we felt the same but in retrospect it appears that we enjoyed much more in the past. I was in campus where everyone knew everyone - now I moved to big crowded city where I just exchange a "hi" with my neighbors
Does it spread the same effervescence  that it did earlier - I wonder
It is special  alright but not the same - perhaps I don't burst crackers or get to eat too many sweets and snacks - perhaps!!
What is more it is raining in Bangalore on Diwali - Imagine!!!

Restlessness

not sure if it is positive or negative there is a lot of restlessness and inner voice prodding that is coming across today and for so many days- what shall I be doing well - sometimes I look for triggers and reasons - there are not too many . Was it Steve Jobs or was in Anna Hazare I don't know - there are people who are not so famous and yet have found their inner calling

Am I looking too hard perhaps ?

Calling

I keep thinking of finding my calling but then I think maybe this is what my calling is. The point is that Steve Jobs knew what he had to do and was pretty sure about it. Was he extraordinary or plain relent less - I don't know the answer. I will rather talk about me and what I want to do .


Already 45 years ( sounds old!!!) - I want to write , work and always have enough to do. What do I work on is a million dollar question. People development is what I enjoy a lot . I love working with people helping them transform and help an organization transform . It may not be another Apple but we just need on Apple but a lot more people to help people to be happy.

More than success I guess for me transformation has to last in happiness

Not going to Gym

I have been going to the gym a Long as I remember and it has been very interesting experience . I was counting it has been eleven years . I went to Bangalore and did gym for 20 minutes as I thought it was sufficient indeed. Little would I know that people would be snigger behind my back saying things like " gymmimg for 20 minutes - why bother?". I have been never thing, lean or slim. This is from the childhood till date. There is also an interesting phenomenon that everyone seems to think that I was thin back then. Which I assure you I never was!!
Anyway the so called "gym" were good places with good trainers - they had so called " scientific" way to make us work out. I changed gyms - I tried all fancy machines and gadgets - they must have worked as I was slimmer than pumpkin but perhaps never thin, lean or slim.
Not to forget I met dietitians , read all the books , bought them and also read them online. Knew what not to eat , when not to eat, what to give up and so on.
I have spent more time sometimes one way travelling to the gym than I have done in gym itself. I know all forms  and all shape of exercises that are there to know. I have done aerobics, kick boxing circuit training , walking, jogging and dieting !
I know at 45 years you cannot expect the moon but I still did!
Yoga was another thing - I did in bits and parts - sometimes to help my asthma - sometimes just like that. I truly believed Yoga makes you fat and flexible. I was not too inclined to be flexible and the " fat" battle was there to fight anyway.
I went for a course form my organisation for 12 days - there they introduced Yoga as an optional thing for us. I went there to give Yoga a last chance and I was smitten!! I am still continuing and I feel fitter - now I do it at home without alarms , machines no need to drive and dress up in trendy gym clothes.

I don't know if there is any weight loss or not but I feel rejuvenated !! and I have not been to Gym

After a while

It has been a while since I wrote my blog and have been feeling longing to to that for a long time. I have been working of different things some great . I have been also trying to analyse things and put them in perspective. Having completed a year in Mumbai by itself has been a great achievement for me. Coming from a small town , moving to Banaglore and now to Mumbai - well !! Not that Mumbai does not get to me - it does all the time . Then I see millions who love it and try to put myself in their shoes . Remember all the positive tales

Office has been a whirlwind and going at great speed. Home was nice too as Family was always around. Made some friends at last.

Lincoln’s Letter to his Son’s Teacher

He will have to learn, I know,
that all men are not just,
all men are not true.
But teach him also that
for every scoundrel there is a hero;
that for every selfish Politician,
there is a dedicated leader…
Teach him for every enemy there is a friend,

Steer him away from envy,
if you can,
teach him the secret of
quiet laughter.

Let him learn early that
the bullies are the easiest to lick…
Teach him, if you can,
the wonder of books…
But also give him quiet time
to ponder the eternal mystery of birds in the sky,
bees in the sun,
and the flowers on a green hillside.

In the school teach him
it is far honorable to fail
than to cheat…
Teach him to have faith
in his own ideas,
even if everyone tells him
they are wrong…
Teach him to be gentle
with gentle people,
and tough with the tough.

Try to give my son
the strength not to follow the crowd
when everyone is getting on the band wagon…
Teach him to listen to all men…
but teach him also to filter
all he hears on a screen of truth,
and take only the good
that comes through.

Teach him if you can,
how to laugh when he is sad…
Teach him there is no shame in tears,
Teach him to scoff at cynics
and to beware of too much sweetness…
Teach him to sell his brawn
and brain to the highest bidders
but never to put a price-tag
on his heart and soul.

Teach him to close his ears
to a howling mob
and to stand and fight
if he thinks he’s right.
Treat him gently,
but do not cuddle him,
because only the test
of fire makes fine steel.

Let him have the courage
to be impatient…
let him have the patience to be brave.
Teach him always
to have sublime faith in himself,
because then he will have
sublime faith in mankind.

This is a big order,
but see what you can do…
He is such a fine little fellow,
my son!

objective huh?

Hi again

I am back and going to  start writing again - I have heard that it is like cleansing when you bare out your soul

I am not talking of souls here - all I am saying or meaning to say that I am looking forward to writing again and it helps me internally when I write. Perhaps finese is not tehre yet in my writing but I am sure it will come up as it matures.

Past few months have gone in a jiffy   - I have been working hard not knowing where I was going but some kind of direction really helps - I think we perhaps always have a direction but don't look hard enough perhaps deny it sometimes

Just that trying too hard at anything makes us lose the real objective

Rise

I have been working on this organizational level new brand positioning initiative called "Rise"- you would think it is a strange name but believe me I have been almost living with it - it is so powerful !

I thought about it - let me apply to my life as well - what if I also "rise" - what would Rise mean to me in my life!!

A lot of thing perhaps - what do I need to when I want to Rise - I need to do a lot - where to begin


Perhaps begin by medidatating each day - try to see life in bigger prespective and not to be caught in by small things in life

I have to grow to Rise